Ok so I have to begin by saying that when I first startednthis blog I kinda thought I'd be writing very often. Clearly that is not the case seeing as I havent put up a new post on a loooong time! There were several times that I wanted to post some thoughts butinguess laziness got the better of me and then it just seemed irrelevant. Even now as I am writing, I'm not sure exactly what I want to say. In a way I just want to revive my blog. So if you're reading this, thanks for sticking with me...
Well... I'm huge! In my 25th week and everyone is saying that I'm "so tiny" uchh.. I know what that means-NOTHING! I am not blind and can see in the mirror that "tiny" is a far from accurate description. It's not about the way I look though. I understand that comes with the territory. It's more about the way I feel. Its getting harder to do basic stuff. Bend down, walk quickly or run, stand for extended periods of time and most importantly, pick up my son. I hate that I'm "not supposed" to pick him up. It's just not realistic somof course I do, but honestly, its not easy and sometimes even causes pain...
The other thing is...well...ok I'll just say it... The intimacy thing-well not really happening. I know he really wants to and he tries all the time but I'm just so not in the mood and havent been in a while. I once read that in order to get in the mood, sometimes you just have to do it and the act itself will naturally create the mood. I did that a few times and it worked but now I can't even seem to muster up enough energy to do that either. I'm not sure if it's really the pregnancy or something else but either way, I feel that it's starting to get to him and though he's being and will undoubtedly continue to be extremely patient, it must be so hard and frustrating for him. Today he went to bed without me at like 830. I know he was exhausted but he never goes to bed without me. He always waits! I'm a little confused. When will I want to again?? When will this dry spell end? Has this happened to anyone?
